New Hair!

I got my hair done Wednesday night! I really like it!! It's really dark, but that's what I wanted so yay! Now, I just need to get a little color back in my face. I've been really sick for the past couple of days, and I'm finally starting to feel a little bit better. I've pretty much been horizontal for 48 hours. Yuck. In other news, I found out today I got rejected by Boston University. I knew it was coming, so whatever. So far I've been rejected from 3/4 schools I've applied to. I feel like I wasted a lot of time and money on those stupid schools. ROAR! I'm an idiot. The last one I'm waiting for is Kent State for an MS in Chemistry, so even if I get in (odds are I won't) I don't know if i want to go and do chemistry. So, I dunno really what's going to happen. I guess I should start looking for jobs, or maybe going to get my teaching credential. Anyway, I'm off to eat for the first time today...I've probably lost 5 pounds from being sick..NOT GOOD! Good luck to everyone else waiting to hear back from grad schools.

Something Worse...

Believe it or not, there is actually something worse than stanky coffee breath. As most of you probably already know, I did not get into NYU. =( Their letter even said, "We cannot believe you applied here, what were you thinking? Idiot." Just kidding, they didn't say that, but I am really disapointed that I didn't get in. Luckily, I was on my way to San Diego when I found out so I had a nice weekend to get my mind elsewhere. Poo on NYU. Rejection sucks. But hey, my mom and my aunt are going to take me on vacation to New York this summer. WOOT! I'm still waiting to hear back from Boston University and Kent State. I doubt I'll get into Boston, but Kent is possible...but I'm not even sure if I want to go there. Ugg I wish I was a trust fund baby and I could just go shoe shopping all day.

On a lighter note, I had a blast in San Diego with Tim this weekend. We left SLO at 11 on Friday morning and didn't get to San Diego until 830!!! Damn rain and lame lame lame LA. We stayed at the Grand Hyatt by the harbor downtown, and it was probably the nicest hotel I've been to. When we arrived, there was a bottle of wine on ice and cheese, crackers and fruit...we couldn't figure out why we were so special, but I finally realized it was probably my mom! So I called her and sure enough, she had made arrangements with the hotel to surprise us with treats!!! What a sweet mom!

We dressed in green and went to Mooses to meet up with some of Tim's friends. We drank for a bit, and chair danced until it was time to walk back to the hotel. We went to the very top of the Hyatt to the bar that looks over the bay and the city. It was beautiful!!!

Saturday, we slept in and checked out of the hotel. I didn't want to leave!! Tim showed me places he used to live and his old highschool and all his favorite places to eat. We hung out with his dad for a bit and got ready for Tim's friend's 21st birthday party. It was a black and pink party at the Barona Casino. This party was incredible! It was decorated like a wedding with pink and black balloons, pink roses, pretty table settings with name placards and a wine glass filled with goodies for everyone to take home. There was a dj, and an open bar, and a three course dinner and coffee. Tim and I swing danced, and attempted salsa but my feet kept getting tangled in the balloon strings, my bra was falling, and I was a bit tipsy so we probably looked silly, but it was a blast. After the party, Tim, Dan, Ali, and I went to the casino and the guys gambled while us girls gave them good luck with our magic pink rings. It worked because they both won!! Later that night we went to Tim's mom's house and hung out for a bit before bed. Tim's family is so sweet!! I had a really nice time meeting them, and seeing where Tim grew up!

To do:

• Put the finishing touches on my senior project and turn it in!
• Plan Heather's Lingerie Party for April
• Plan Jillian's Bachelorette Party
• Scrapbook like mad!
• Go to Disneyland
• Dye my hair chocolate
• House sit in April for 10 days
• Get rich

Nothing Worse

There's nothing worse than coffee breath. EWW! I drank two hazelnut mocha's this morning and now my mouth tastes like shit. I am afraid for those who have to talk to me (stay away!). I can't wait to go home and brush my teeth. SHIT! My toothbrush is still in Atascadero! Okay, new rule: There's nothing worse than having bad coffee breath and no toothbrush. :(

There's nothing better than a big, juicy In and Out cheeseburger (purchased from a DRIVE THRU!!!!). I had the luxury of enjoying one last night while I was up in Atascadero housesitting. I devoured that sucker. I plan on having another one sometime this weekend.

BTW, T-5 days until I hear from NYU. (I'm not getting in.)

Failure to Launch tomorrow! Can't wait. So excited. MM and SJP rock my world. (Especially combined with a bit of Helya and Rachel)

P.S. Don't use this new (worthless) blog as an excuse not to respond to my last one--it is more important. Do it!

Peace out Nucca.

Change your hair, change your life?

I'm thinking of dying my hair dark brown (via Carlos). I just feel like I need a change. My hair is so boring and I always have it the same way. It's really annoying that I've looked exactly the same in every picture for the past 5 years. On one hand, I do think it looks good light and blonde, but on the other hand, I always have it light, so maybe a change will be refreshing and exciting (and hot)? Some people say they liked when my hair was dark (when I dyed it myself a couple years ago), and I liked it too, but then others tell me they only like it blonde. ROAR! I need some more opinions. I am not afraid to change it, in fact, I love taking risks, but I just want to make sure I'll still have friends. :)

Some pictures of me with darker hair--for your voting pleasure.

The Space Between

I LOVE TIM.
I also love Dave Matthews. I wish I wrote this song.
Does anyone know if it's possible to link to a song from
this blog so that people can hear it as they read this?
If not, go to MYSPACE and listen...

You cannot quit me so quickly
There's no hope in you for me 
No corner you could squeeze me 
But I got all the time for you, love

The Space Between 
The tears we cry 
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between 
The wicked lies we tell 
And hope to keep safe from the pain

But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like 'Will it rain today?'
Waste the hours with talking, talking 
These twisted games we're playing

We're strange allies
With warring hearts 
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain

Will I hold you again?
Will I hold...

Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster 
You know you went off like a devil 
In a church in the middle of a crowded room 
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don't take this ship down

The Space Between 
Where you're smiling high
Is where you'll find me if I get to go
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you 
The rain that falls 
Splash in your heart
 Ran like sadness down the window into...

The Space Between 
Our wicked lies 
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand 
'Cause we're walking out of here
Oh, right out of here 
Love is all we need here

The Space Between 
What's wrong and right 
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you 
The Space Between
 Your heart and mine 
Is the space we'll fill with time 
The Space Between...




I get goosebumps...

"Don't wake me...

...I plan on sleeping in." I think The Postal Service wrote that song just for me. I love to sleep. Today (Wednesday) was the first day since Friday that I've had to be up early for work. So, all weekend I've enjoyed harmonious sleep. "Sleeping in" to me requires that I sleep past 9:00, but usually when I have the opportunity, I sleep as late as possible. Saturday I slept in til 11, Sunday till noon, and Monday till 1. Notice a trend? :) I love my life. Monday was amazing because I didn't have work (thank you Mr. President) so I stayed in my pajamas all day watching Nip/Tuck season 1, playing on my new ibook, and eating yummy food with Timo. He surprised me with these really pretty earrings that I told him I liked in a magazine a few weeks ago. It's thoughtful things like this that make me like him so much.

For Valentines Day he had me over to his house, and he answered the door dressed up in a shirt and tie, with candles lit all over his apartment. He was cooking dinner, and had the table set, and offered me some wine. It was the cutest thing ever. No one has ever put so much effort into making a sweet Vday for me. Thanks Tim! This weekend should be pretty fun. Sejal is coming from San Jose, and we always have a great time going out with her. Tim also might be having a friend come visit, this time a better one ;) It's Mardi Gras, so we are going downtown to show our boobies...just kidding. Mardi Gras 2003 is when Helya first corrupted me...but that's a good thing because I was a lame-ass prude. Thanks to her I am no longer with Adam (woot!), and I enjoy being social with my friends! She's my hero. So, it's our anniversary, and we are going to break out the vodka and skittles with a side of hookah. Friday will be just what I need after last weekend's debaucle.

My favorite things right now:

• Starbucks Hazelnut Mochas
• Tim's down comforter
• My new earrings
• Cuddling with Rachel while watching Grey's Anatomy
• Nip/Tuck
• my ibook
• my future wedding dress
• listening to Tim talk (Crazy!!)
  
• sleeping in
  

Aye Dios Mio!

Above all, mind what you say. "Behold how much wood is kindled by how small a fire, and the tongue is a fire" - that's the truth.

I made the mistake of overeacting to a situation that was really not a big deal. There were some valid reasons for me to be upset, but overall, I turned something simple into a huge, huge, embarrasing, unnecessary battle. I don't think I've ever been a true bitch to someone who I met for the first time before last night. Again, there were plenty of reasons for me to be bitchy, but my personality rarely includes actually becoming a bitch to new people outloud. (I say new people, because my friends all know I definitely know how to be bitchy). Also, I don't think I've ever been in such a crazy, pointless yelling match with a boyfriend. It really sucks, and I really don't like drama. My mom even said tonight, "this is what you were afraid of: relationships with drama." Yuck. I usually try to stay away from drama that stems from jealousy or bitterness, but for some reason, this time I could NOT stop myself for the love of god! I need to learn how to shut my mouth, but even more, I wish there were a way to get my brain cleansed of all the nasty things that were going through my mind the past couple of days. I mean, really, I imagined all sorts of wild things, and the sad part is, I believed they could actually happen. I am psychotic and I think I need to be checked in. Rachel said tonight, "it's worse when you usually aren't the type to flip out about stuff involving boyfriends, so when you do, it's like you can't control yourself, and it just turns into a huge mess!" She is completely right. Hopefully I got it all out of my system, so I never have to go insane again. Hmph. Thank GOD for Saturday. Time for a little romance.

So with this, I leave you with my daily horoscope which was surprisingly dead on.

Hopefully, you've gotten over the urge to lose your cool and do something crazy, because with the kind of conscience you tote around, it would never work: You'd turn yourself in and apologize in three hours or less. No, you may be fiery, but you know when to call it quits, and it's time. Besides, it's the weekend, and it's time to have fun -- which just so happens to be your specialty.

One more thing...to all the "visitors" out there, pease don't be rude. Stay with someone else if it feels like you are causing problems...and when you know people have plans the next day, get your ass out of bed, and don't overstay your welcome. Thanks.