Tuesday, October 17, 2006


Smile for:

  • a new haircut
  • Nine West boots
  • a clean house
  • red potatoes
  • The Bachelor (and Grey's Anatomy, Lost, 6 Degrees...etc - I am a loser)
  • spooning
  • Tim in a german hat, smoking a cigar, while double fisting pints of beer.
  • napping after work
  • decorating for Halloweener
  • lightning!
  • Helya on Friday!
  • Rach and Kara in two weeks!
  • dancing to reggae
  • Mr. 619
  • face caresses
  • costco
  • my mariner
Frown for:
  • TMJ
  • TMJ medicine that gives me chronic heartburn
  • working
  • being cold
  • dirty dishes
  • laundromats
  • waking up early
  • belly aches
  • heart ache
  • missing my mama
  • losing earrings
  • lack of stores that sell quaint undies in SLO
  • earthquakes in Hawaii scaring my Heatherbug
  • bills
  • not enough bills
  • Bills
Yearn for:
  • a massage
  • hot springs
  • Avila Barn
  • my lovelies
  • making out
  • Skyy Melon
  • vacation days
  • golden trees
  • wireless internet

Saturday, October 07, 2006


People have the right to fly
And will when it gets compromised
Their hearts say "Move along"
Their minds say "Gotcha heart"
Let's move it along

And airports, see it all the time
Where someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand, a single rose

That's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And I won't be the last
No I won't be the last, to love her

You can't build a house of leaves
And live like it's an evergreen
It's just a season thing
It's just this thing that seasons do

And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
And you won't be the first
No you won't be the first, to love me

You can find me, if you ever want to give
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around the bend
I'll be around, I'll be around
And if you never stop when you wave goodbye
You just might find if you give it time
You will wave hello again
You just might wave hello again

And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now

You can't love too much, one part of it(repeat)

I believe that my life's gonna see
The love I give return to me
I believe that my life's gonna see yeah
The love I give return to me.
I believe that my life's gonna see the love I give
Return to me...

Please tell me how after a summer full of love, adventure, Disneyland, Vegas, and Lake Tahoe, two people can fall apart? Shouldn't those things just make the glue stronger? Hmph! I don't get it.

Return to me!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006


I was going through some old posts on my other blog and wanted to see what my life was like a year ago today. I was very sad then because my grandma Ladonna passed away. I remember feeling empty and speechless. I cried a lot and wished I had one more day with my beloved grandmother. Since she passed, I think about her often and imagine her telling me how proud she is and how she can't wait to give me a big hug. Her laugh echoes, and I know her spirit is always there, trying to protect me from harm and sadness. My family remembers her lovely life, and all of the wonderful things she did for everyone. We always say, 'Ladonna would LOVE this'. I miss her terribly. I miss her beautiful handwriting in the letters she'd send. I miss the softness of her sweater against my cheek as we'd hug. I miss her making green 7up on St. Patrick's day. I miss spending part of the holidays with her and making fun of my grandpa together. I miss sending her pictures and telling her all about my life. I'd like to be unselfish and stop crying about my life for a minute here, and realize that there are worse things... like living alone because your wife is no longer with you, or watching your mom suffer from a three year long illness, or being only 5 years old and losing a grandma before you really got to know her. I know one thing for certain; life was a whole lot better with her in it.

"If I could open my mouth wide enough for a marching band to march out
They would make your name sing
And bend through alleys and bounce off of the buildings"
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