Above all, mind what you say. "Behold how much wood is kindled by how small a fire, and the tongue is a fire" - that's the truth.
I made the mistake of overeacting to a situation that was really not a big deal. There were some valid reasons for me to be upset, but overall, I turned something simple into a huge, huge, embarrasing, unnecessary battle. I don't think I've ever been a true bitch to someone who I met for the first time before last night. Again, there were plenty of reasons for me to be bitchy, but my personality rarely includes actually becoming a bitch to new people outloud. (I say new people, because my friends all know I definitely know how to be bitchy). Also, I don't think I've ever been in such a crazy, pointless yelling match with a boyfriend. It really sucks, and I really don't like drama. My mom even said tonight, "this is what you were afraid of: relationships with drama." Yuck. I usually try to stay away from drama that stems from jealousy or bitterness, but for some reason, this time I could NOT stop myself for the love of god! I need to learn how to shut my mouth, but even more, I wish there were a way to get my brain cleansed of all the nasty things that were going through my mind the past couple of days. I mean, really, I imagined all sorts of wild things, and the sad part is, I believed they could actually happen. I am psychotic and I think I need to be checked in. Rachel said tonight, "it's worse when you usually aren't the type to flip out about stuff involving boyfriends, so when you do, it's like you can't control yourself, and it just turns into a huge mess!" She is completely right. Hopefully I got it all out of my system, so I never have to go insane again. Hmph. Thank GOD for Saturday. Time for a little romance.
So with this, I leave you with my daily horoscope which was surprisingly dead on.
Hopefully, you've gotten over the urge to lose your cool and do something crazy, because with the kind of conscience you tote around, it would never work: You'd turn yourself in and apologize in three hours or less. No, you may be fiery, but you know when to call it quits, and it's time. Besides, it's the weekend, and it's time to have fun -- which just so happens to be your specialty.
One more thing...to all the "visitors" out there, pease don't be rude. Stay with someone else if it feels like you are causing problems...and when you know people have plans the next day, get your ass out of bed, and don't overstay your welcome. Thanks.